post-op and poppies

I had the spinal stimulator implanted on 11-16. The post-op pain was something else and I will be eternally greatful for the iv morphine drip they graciously allowed me.
I was sent home with my regular meds, which turned out to be inadequate. Surgery Thusday, went home Friday, Saturday night ended up in the ER spiking a fever over 100. Tests for infection said no infection. The Dr. there said it was the pain not being under control causing me to have the fever. When I had the chest xray, I was sobbing and shaking so bad because of having to stand which made the pain worse. The technician stopped came over and asked if I was ok. All I could do was say yes between sobs. They hooked me up to some fentanyl by iv and it helped. Two other surgeries I've had and I never needed strong pain meds, just asked for tylenol. This surgery was certainly different, but every day I feel a little better than the day before. I can't wait until I'm all healed with my little machine buzzing away the pain I've lived with for 6 years. Will I remember what normal feels like?

It's nuclear George, nuke-lee-er

Oh good god, if I hear the so-called leader of the free world, with an ivy league education no less, say nucular one more time I'm going to barf.

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What lies within

"What lies before us and what lies behind us are small matters compared to what lies within us. And when we bring what is within us out into the world, miracles happen" by Ralph Waldo Emmerson